the point isnt to live happily ever after, the point is to live.

when you have no one to turn to

2005-10-02T21:01:18Z

you end up going in circles forever.

and the ones you thought you would turn to are the ones
you are turning from.
life is sad and why cant we just all be happy

because that is ridiculous.

JEALOUSY IS AN UGLY THING.

or something like it

2005-05-02T04:10:34Z

its so absurd that i could be this vulnerable
especially to this guy but whats the difference

bon jovi says it all and i need to hear it from him..

"these five words i swear to you ...
I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU"

the_diviner @ 2005-04-10T22:14:00

2005-04-11T05:21:46Z

oh heaven! if i could rewind things i would do them so differently.

THE HARDEST THING I'VE EVER HAD TO DO IS REALIZE MY MISTAKES AND MOVE ON.

i miss jessikah its hard to breath and be happy without her.

i miss carlos too because i used to be "like this" with him and i barely know him now.

brandon is gone i have a bad feeling i will never see him again.

and on another note(IM SORRY ... I DONT KNOW WHY I SAID WE WOULD WORK OUT ... WE WONT!)

the words of the profits are written on the subway wall

2005-03-22T03:06:42Z

rollin in my 5 point 0

with my rag top down so my hair can blow

i cut my hair like two weeks ago and i decided that

since im going to cut it again like next week that you should

just catch a peek at it while its around :)

my face looks chitty but i like my hair haha!

well fuck faces!!!! its official ... i have a major crush

which will probably be gone in like ...

we will see :)

BOY: one day you'll be a man GIRL: he'll help you understand.

2005-02-22T06:16:09Z

Have you ever lost yourself in a kiss?
I mean pure psychedelic inebriation, Not just lustful petting but transcendental metamorphosis when you became aware that the greatness of this being was breathing into you. Licking the sides and corner of your mouth, like sealing a thousand freshy envelopes filled with the essence of your passionate being and then opened by the same mouth and delivered back to you, over and over again - the first kiss of the rest of your life. A kiss that confirms that the universe is aligned, that the world's greatest resource is love.

i have a tendancy to throw things away once i decide im better than that

i miss jessikah alot. and i think because she was having problem i
kind of just decided that i was better than that ... and i dont
want to do that to her.

i love her so much. shes what keeps me breathing and i feel so dead w/o her.

leave your number on my locker and ill give you a call hey shut up hey shut up

2005-02-16T02:11:31Z

how about BRIAN KINITZ<3 lord all mighty .... my aunt took that picture of us lol

we didnt even know we were just chillen at the piano bar :) good times.

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww lordy lordy lordy!

hehe so i went on a cruise and here are just a few pictures ... haha

[i hate some people are so gay :)]

thats what you get when you order nothing for dessert. :)

so we hadn't even seen our rooms and we were already eating lol

haha we keep getting in trouble by the boat people for having cigars

"im shy ... but i've got a big dick."

i wanted it but they were all hugeeeeeeeee.

so look at my one cousin hunched over the couch haha .... thats so cute theyre all cuddled and sleepin.

some ugly guys my cousins were hanging out with lol .... didnt have time for that lol.

the tables were pretty and dinner was nice ... but why are they all wearing my clothes?

when we were getting on ... the one in the middle is like 14 and the one next to her is like 19 lol.

shes all short.the middle one got sooooooooooooo hammered lol funny shit!

i want this purse alot!!!! its so cute its like a sling sort of.

we were having a clevage contest ... joey won. i came in last ... damn!

haha yeah well thats bout it.... <3

i had fun

question next ....

new york?

hawaii?

keep in mind ive been to fiji annnnd the bahamas...

but im moving to new york for college .....

hard huh lol ..

choose!

we are all such products.

2005-02-08T05:26:36Z

estoy muy feliz ...

i had rid myself of all that
makes me unhappy therefore i am
always .... smiling.

me and faviana were talking and we decided that ....

MAKEOUT lovERS: donde esta?
ur not DUCKIE: en mi casa dooh!
MAKEOUT lovERS: no en mi weenie tonta
ur not DUCKIE: chupa mi pito binche bendeja
MAKEOUT lovERS: besa mis nalja pinche gringa
ur not DUCKIE: oh yeah well a guy walked into a bar and said "ouch!"
MAKEOUT lovERS: and then i saw your face and said "its not holloween bitch!"
MAKEOUT lovERS: lol
ur not DUCKIE: oh yeah well two antanaes met on a roof and fell in love ....
ur not DUCKIE: they got married ... the wedding was okay it was whatever
ur not DUCKIE: but the reception was great!!!
MAKEOUT lovERS: lol

yeah well ... whatever that biyotch needs a WEENIER DOG!

do you wonder why? ... i cant love you like that so sorry!

2005-02-03T06:04:34Z

well i dont know about some people that i thought were my "friends"
and shit ...

aparently im mistaken about how much i thought people cared.
the least 2 weeks have helped me realize who the ones that i do
care about are and why.

me and astra have been re-building something and it does
feel good to be back in some sort of relationship with her.
fabi and me are good as ever, i always know that kid cares.

some other girls are being shady and shit ...
but i dont care cause i dont expect anything from them
anyways ...

the only people i expect to care are ...

fabi
jess
jayme
and andrew of course.

and im getting amazing results from fab and drewster.
jay and jess are just on a diff tip than am but i know they still care.
i hope.

stand offish ...////bored of downey losers////

2005-01-23T20:25:57Z

everytime i leave downey i meet someone amazing.
why is it that everyone here feels the need to be rude.
downey and rudeness go hand in hand i supose.
i have meet so many people that i could have amazing friendships
and fabulous relationships with ...
most people here cant even compare to those people.

as they say ...

"there will always be paris."

i need to get out.
when i would think about leaving before ... it was like
well i have reasons to stay.
i can only think of three people worth staying here for.
and one doesnt even live in downey.

jayme ...i just dont even remember a time without her.
fabiana ...she helps me get through rough shit.
and
jessikah ...whom i never ever see ...is just there all the time
bad and good; bad fights and good fucks everything worth neededing
a friend for.

but are they enough to keep me in california for more than my senior year?
im not sure.

boooby-di-doooobady-oooo

2005-01-19T00:43:59Z

aw ... i am totally falling for one
of my friends. i dont like doing it.
but i will make an exception for this
asshole.

everytime i talk to him i realize ...

awww cute!

lovvvvve life ... things are amazing!

hjghkhgjgfhgf

2005-01-12T03:29:47Z

ok so jess is coming in .... about 72 hours!

and i think i will have my car within a week!
ehhh im excited <3

im almost positive im getting the one i want too!

CABRIO!

2005-01-10T03:31:22Z

oh oh oh ok!
so yeah im getting my hopes wayyy up right now!
but im totally in love<3
that car is soooooo *me*

+its a cabrio vol blah blah wagon or w/e you spell it
+its 13,950 (or somehwere around that)
+it 2001 with only 40,000 miles (pretty normal)
+heated seats
+cd changer
+abs brakes
+good warranty
+only has 4 seats ... which i like alot
+its a convertable
-which means im always driving to the beach
+it has a tiny butt
+its 2 door
+its roomy
+black outside ... tan inside<3
+leather interior
-if my car is nice people will want me to drive more

oh if my mom doesnt buy it i will be so crused!
i loooooooooooooooooove it so much!
<<<<cabrio333333 in my dreams car!

yeah uh huh

2005-01-09T04:38:44Z

SUP TO BRAD PITT AND JENNIFER ANISTON FILING FOR DIVORCE!
they were so wrong for each other.

so im going to test drive the car i want tomarrow
cause i couldnt today cause it was inside the room thing.

but i realllly want this cute little cambrio i saw ..
my mom was being a twat about it and was like eww no.

we will see ... ill probably buy it tomarrow lol
i always get what i want.

i dont care i dont mind you only broke my heart one time

2005-01-07T03:15:43Z

So lately things have been weird

Like … jess is coming next weekend

And that will be interesting

Everyone is moving away

Which makes the whole graduating

And moving away thing easy.

I think my senior year im going to go on

Another cruise with my mom and my aunt

And just take a grip of friends with me

So if you want to go tell me.

Things have been weird … all my friends

Are fucking weird now.

I have been having feeling for a guy

Or whatever … it weird cause I don’t

Want them. I hate liking people.

Its overrated.

My friends are overrated.

Only some of them are as great as I make them.

Most of them are kind of lame.

Most the people here are lame.

I need to get out … get in with my family

There are some of the coolest

People I know. Cooler than most of my friends.

So I want him to know that I think

About him a lot …

But I want him to know that I hate it …

I think he knows who he is.

…. I don’t want to.

the_diviner @ 2005-01-01T20:07:00

2005-01-02T04:08:00Z

gayyyyyy <3

im bored

i made a big 'ole boo boo and i cant turn it around.

2004-12-24T04:12:45Z

i think its almost amazing how my feelings are so overwhelming right
now that i cant really breathe and i feel like im going to pass out.

the past sucks and im worried about the future ... doesnt leave me
much room to move around. and im very clostrophobic.

looove it about you

2004-12-17T01:54:00Z

lately i've really been thinking alot about this one guy...
im sure you all know him. he's been in my life for quite some time now

he is one of the sweetest guys i've ever met.
i love him to peices.... and i do seriously love him.
i think more than any other one of my friends.

i love that fact that we have both liked each other but it was totally
just bad timing. cause when he liked me i had no idea
and when i liked him he had no idea. i dont figure i lost my chance
i figure it has been put on hold. but i love the guy
and im glad i can be friends with him...<3

and also ...
CHRISTIAN POMPA ROCKS!

the_diviner @ 2004-12-15T16:54:00

2004-12-16T00:55:08Z

so i just looked at melo right now and i think
that everyone needs to get a new one cause they re-did that shit and its fast as fuck and its bomb haha
imagine?

to .... night ... we ....

2004-12-03T03:58:47Z

i misss the love of my life.

but i am glad i have time with my favvvvianer.

ewww lol thats sick

these pictures are so sick i love these grossnesses

ehhh hungry girl ...

hahahaha look at my chunt eyebrows lol

hahaha ewwwy

awww i love that of fabi.

lol i loooook gross but i love it cause i admire my lover.

hahahaha yay us!

hehe weird lol.

i <3 fabio.

butttt i do my jessie back so fabi jessie samie day dec.31th-jan.1st!!!

oh man thats hott sex right there.

i miss my jessie pooperkins.<333

seeee its no so bad!

2004-12-01T05:37:43Z

today i went to fabi's after school like always lol but we did not take pictures!!!!

crazy huh. lol well instead we planned for college ... i dont really know how we are going to get it done but

we are and we have a situation planned out but talk with my mom sort of changed things a little bit.

well ill have pictures from yesterday like tomarrow<3

i love fabiana.

we are going to make a bed out of seven jeans for our friend lol!

for all man kind ... for all man kind ..... sever .... seven .... sevennnnnn!

bye bye bye you dont have a clue!

2004-11-27T03:29:26Z

so hott couple???

yeah ok im lame i know this but thats andrew<3 haha

so i went to fabia boo boo's house wed. after school...

i duno she tryed to get my fat on japanese shit??

she tried killing me with a knife then with a pan.

then she tryed to make me steal a car.

then she tryed to make me break and enter into hollies old house.

she is gunna get me into trouble on of these days.

yeah im pointing to the wrong side haha those mirror images are tricky.

haha im kinda transparent cause im so white lol my head disapears.

fabi loves that picture lol i think its kinda ugly but im smart cause i made

the heart! haha fabi is slower than me!!!

i will give you a dollar if you can figure out what is wrong with this picture haha!

(other than the fact that i look ugly and fat haha)

haha thats all for now.

isnt andrew pretty im excited to go out with him sunday.

i love my holshy.

and my fabia boo boo.

(favvvvvvvviana)

thats shauna my ex- step sister miss her

ohhhh andrewwww!!!!!!!!!<3

2004-11-26T02:52:55Z

ok so the most random thing ever happened ...

this guy andrew who i went to school with called me today and asked me out
cause i ran into him at the mall like a month ago and he said...

"i couldn't stop thinking about you and how beautiful you are."
i almost died. hes so cute and yeah im excited to go out with him.<3
he had to get my # from his grandma cause she knows my mom
he said all he can think of is me.

ok kinda weird but i dont care hes soooo cute!!!<3

you are a lost dream .... im on my knees pleading you forget i was dumb.

2004-11-19T04:49:55Z

i haven't seen jessikah-lynn for .. tomarrow will be 3 weeks.
i've been crying the last 2 days about it. despitless of how happy i am
to be with all my friends and spend time with them and all of it ...
i appreciate them sooo much ...
but i love jessie and i need her very much.
i just want to see her.

+i saw carlos (not charlie) 3 times this week im glad i missed him.
+holshy and me are talking alot more now.
-i miss astra.
+i got my l.a.m.b purse
-things with boy...(s) are going slowly .... i wont tell anyone who the 2nd one is
-i miss garrett
+i was disapointed in a few people for not calling me on wed.
-i miss alex.

my heart is all breaking cause life is so absolutely perfect
but still so many things are wrong
i am like MARY MOTHER FUCKING SUNSHINE these days.

i am very ashamed to say i miss someone ... i thought i would never miss.

why does my heart always beat before yours does?

2004-11-16T04:48:58Z

me and fabi played on saturday and if you havent seen yet we mixed it up a lil

with my hair haha a little different haha .....

my fabia boo booo esta muy guapa!!!!!!<3

yeah gross but hey we are hot bitchs and we know it haha

i loooooooooove that picture its like sex in a bottle

ehhhhhh i love fabiana almada mucho mucho mucho.

thats our brain

i am 3/4's of our brain ...... and fabiana is 1/4 the brain

nd together we are onnnnne<3

i love ms. favvvvvvvviana!

i <3 this song

2004-11-14T21:33:44Z

if this is the last thing you do
just tell me thats its ok for me
to have these feelings for you
when it cold to want to call you
oh im dialing the phone
letting it ring for hours
pretending to hear your voice
why does my heart always beat before yours does?

if you know who sings this song tell me please!!!!